The point of indifference

I have been experiencing this and could not resist to write down my experience... is it "my" experience or is it my "outerselve's"??? I have been thinking about this concept for a while. When you reach this point your "outer side" starts responding to the stimulus from the environment. And the funniest part is that you are aware of that reaction and also you are so indifferent to others reaction to that..

When you reach this point in life, then every place on this globe seems to be same to your inner-self and every person the same. Many of the reactions seem to be known to you and many conversations the same. Its not the same feeling of "been there done that " but it is the feeling of disappointment of not belonging to the place where your outer-self belongs to. This is, in one way one of the most disappointing feelings in life however, this helps your soul (inner-self) to evolve.

At this stage of life you clearly demarcate the inner-self from your outer, to the extent that...when your inner-self is in action, I mean when it is wanting to do something, you almost ignore what the outer-self is feeling to the reactions of environment. When you ignore your outer-self it means that you do not even care for the reaction of externalities to what your external-self is.

So, I dont know whether this a stage of mental evolution or is it a stage of disinterestedness. Is it change? or is it a state of mind? I need some time to mull over....